Life.

Was telling dd some stories about my friend last night during our conversation.

Then I told him what I said to joyce; about loving someone with good future prospect in life, one have to pay a certain price for it. *During the courting period*

Our r/s isn't something that is full of glamorous events; Unlike Carol, XM & Dawn. *Heex*

We started off with him telling me right from the beginning that "Studies to him will be his first priority" Yes, he told me that on the very first day. *Unforgettable indeed*

His thinking is that; He wanted me to know that he is a busy person right from the start, and not to let me realize it through the journey and find it unbearable. He is working really hard just so to survive in the chem engine super competitive environment. *Its true that there is no future prospect if I were to date a chem engine student of CAP 3.0*

So all I can say to him is: You just go do whatever you deemed is important. I'll be fine.

Of course, through the years *Not that we shared many years together*, many struggles came about. *The struggle within myself* Looking at how other's r/s are like, you have just got to be envy. 毕竟，its my first r/s. There will definitely be some expectations that one will wished to have.

Korkor told me: "The mind is the most powerful tool"

Indeed it is, cause "brainwashing" is the word I used on myself.

So I'll be telling myself: "XiaoQian, you got to be really understanding. You'll be fine."

Hahax ! But of cause, I'll get quite greedy once in awhile & that will be when we quarrel.

So the morale of the story is, If I've made up my mind to be totally understanding, I've to continue to be one. No chance for me to think otherwise, cause he will expect that from you. =) *Deep breathe*Really, Its hard*

I told dd that if he didn't insist of calling me every night, there is a high possibility that something might happen to us. *Anyway, calling me every night doesn't mean that we had very fulfilling heart to heart talk every night. It is just an act to show the presence of one another. He would usually do his work while holding the phone. So either i'll talk & he'll response or we'll just take turn whining to each other. Even best, we'll hold the phone & do our own stuff. Yea =)*

He for-casted that if he wasn't able to even call me up every night, something would have already happen. Call up also = calling up to say good night or whatsoever. He told me if he is able to slack, he would have slack. Heex *_*

Narrate the scenario when I'm out working in the society to him, and ask him for his opinion on that. He said he will just wait for me at night till I knock off from work. *Our industry requires us to work long hours of OT* There isn't any problem for him to wait for me, as he would most probably be still doing his work.

Hahax...that is one good thing about having a busy boyfriend. You don't have to worry about neglecting him due to your own work, as he would still be busier than you. :P

At the end of the day, it is still about whether we still loves each other or not.

Muacks :-x

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