It was a one week vacation.
I sms-ed my bf once everyday.
Utilized the Internet Services at some hotel that provided such services.
And also Ching's iphone that allows me to tap on the free wifi.
Msn with bf.
I still remember back then, he was in the progress of doing his fyp.
A one semester fyp of him.
The module that causes him loads of stress & anger.
He would practically whine to me everyday.
No exception during my grad trip.
There is one night during the grad trip, and we were on msn.
We talked about nothing but his fyp.
Joel saw it and asked why he only said all that to me.
At that moment, I'm speechless.
Was depressed with teary eyes.
Thinking, why our conversation isn't about something sweet.
Of course, I know that I couldn't be so self-centered.
He needs me to be there for him & yet I am not.
He needs someone to listen to all his issues.
He just need someone to lighten his load by letting him throw all the anger out from his heart.
Tho I'm not the only one, I should be happy that he came for me too.
One fine day during the trip, I asked joel if he misses his gf.
He answered without thinking that he definitely miss her a lot.
I was touched.
Thinking & Hoping that my bf would have missed me too.
This time round, will he still miss me?
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You see, usually i'm the one waiting for him just because he is the busier one.
When one is pre-occupied with so many things on hand, the intensity of missing someone dearly isn't as high as someone who is not pre-occupied at all.
Sometimes, I'll do silly things like telling him "I am busy lo. No time."
But at the end of the day, he knew that I'll still fit into his schedule for us.
Heex ^_^ He better comes home with a nice gift for me !!!!
BOO !!!!
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I need some ice-cream or chocolate to make myself happier.
Its PMS *_*
Furthermore, the week that is to come by will be a challenge for me. Not in term of him but in term of *That*
When I need someone to be there, he is far far away.
*_*
I'm feeling better now....
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